Finally, for the first time I actually didn’t procrastinate on my school work, got my reading, midterm, worksheet & majority of my team assignment all in the bag. I even have sometime to finally get into a book I been wantin to get into. Yea, im soundin like a super geek doing homework on a friday, but at least I won’t be stressed out monday or cramming it so few hours before class. Musik & Literature what a friday lol..

We certainly started off on a rocky start. I think it was with anxiety of trying to part. Still in amaze of what 2011 brang. I guess I was worried it couldnt happend again. But- & I say that with much intention. I have faith & it drives my every direction. Its nothing I can show, its something I know.

This year as it is an american tradition to create resolutions of change. I offer my complete self, & as empty as one can be. I chose to take 2012 as a course, the study of ME. To experience, to feel, to understand what is around me close & far. To enjoy life, love passionately, laugh uncontrollably. 2012, we have a ways to go. I make a pact, to hang on & enjoy the ride :)

Growing up I was taught; nothing in life is easy or will always be fair but, no matter what keep your head up & both your feet on these ground. Should you fall get back up.

With all of the trials & tribulations of life we tend to not hear that small voice of encouragement, the needed optimistic reasoning, the shoves to remain calm & patient or the one that takes no excuse for an answer. Your number one fan rooting you on at any chance they get- our intuition, our true self.

No one can ever understand you, like you. no one can know your true capabilities, strength, potential like you. no one will ever be able to tell you, your value. I choose to be; me, an individual created in Gods likeness, beautiful & respectable uniqueness. Loving to all that is love, compassionate to passion, determine, focused & choosey, converse for the humanistic need but aware to not be so, loosely. Care-free spirt; laughing as hard as I can, sing as loud as I can & live like no ones watching.

Because no matter what happens in life, no matter who doesn’t understand, gives me a chance, no matter what, no one could never take away who I am, my devine likeness, my blessings or my uniqueness. Cause no matter what, He recognizes it all, he sees, hears & feels it all. & as long as he is in my heart & in my praises of glory everyday he is who matters no matter what!

GodisGOOD

Before this year started I was in such anticipation for 2012s arrival & now that its here im overwhelmed with empty handed expectations. It seems as if for the life of me i cant get or find a job, I can almost care less what the position, just as long as its more benefical than an upset. Ugh! Along with my current employment of seeking employment, I feel as if my current employment status has been affecting my emotional blance. Id love to just focus on school but I feel the constant reminder of my own need of independence & person personal responsibility. Ugh! Ok so I think I’m done venting.

Peace the *$©& out!!!!